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Thursday, 03 May 2012

  • Marriage and kids - The End Goal?

    I used to think getting married and having kids were the ultimate end goals.  All that dating, all that searching, all that forcing myself to go out even when I didn't want to because I knew I wouldn't find "the one" laying in bed all night -  all that work would have finally paid off.  Finally, I could breathe a sigh of relief, knowing that I had accomplished the ultimate goal.  I mean, isn't finding love, settling down, and having a family everyone's utmost dream?  

     

    What I'm beginning to realize, however, is that getting married/having kids is not the finish line at the end of an uphill battle, where everything after the fact is easy breezy.  In fact, it might be just the trough of an even larger mountain.  Staying married, staying happily married, passionately in love, is work - apparently too much work for 50% of couples given the divorce rates these days.  Juggling work and a healthy relationship is hard enough, I can't even begin to imagine kids!  God forbid one of them is physically or mentally disabled and hello giant burden for the rest of your life.  

     

    One of my best friends was feeling discouraged from the inundation of engagement/wedding announcements.  I told her, there may be a slew of marriages now, but wait 10-20 years, and we'll start hearing about all the divorces.  

Sunday, 29 April 2012

  • The "Men look better with age" BS

    People keep saying this cliched phrase and a bunch of loser 20 something guys get all cocky thinking they'll be the shit in 10-20 years.  They think all these women that are turning them down now will get all desperate and will be flocking to them then and look who gets the last laugh!!

     

    False.

     

    If you're a chubby, 5'5'', sheepish looking dude at 20, you'll be a chubbier, 5'5'', partially balding dude at 30.  If you think about these guys that "get better with age", they already started out 5'10 or taller, lean and cut, already with some swag at 20.  THE ONLY DIFFERENCE between 20 to 30 is they're richer and cockier and thus "more distinguished".  They got the ladies at 20, they just get more at 30 (mostly because of the money). 

     

    So for those losers sitting there, thinking they're gonna turn into some bomb shit in 10 years and can laugh at us women while our ovaries are drying up, think again.  NOT EVERY GUY AGES WELL.  Especially if you're short, chubby, and poor.  And if you happen to bag a fantastic, fabulous chic in your 40's that wouldn't have even taken a second look at you 10 years ago, be comforted in the fact that she just settled for you

Monday, 16 April 2012

  • Girls and test scores

    One of the biggest differences I've noticed between men and women is how they approach the issue of sharing grades and test scores.  

     

    Men share.  They're open and honest about their achievements and failures. 

     

    Women do not share.  In fact, it's considered poor taste to even ask what score you got!  

     

    I, being a female, fall into the "male" category when it comes to my scores.  I'm open to sharing; in fact, I encourage it.  When I do well, I want to celebrate!  when I suck, I want a shoulder to lean on.  Unfortunately for me, the majority of my female friends fall into the "female" category for test scores and I don't have a ton of male medical school friends.  

Wednesday, 14 March 2012

  • Bitter Sweet NYC

    I have about 3 months before I need to pack my bags, say See you later to NYC, and head back to North Carolina.  

     

    NYC was the first city I've lived in where I've never (at least rarely) felt lonely and where I've never been bored or dissatisfied with life.  It's the first time I didn't feel pressure to settle down or the need to reproduce.  Granted, I've only lived in Chicago and North Carolina, but people settle down pretty fast in both those places - I think half my med school class is either married or engaged.

     

    Sometimes I fear that if I stay here, I'm doomed to never getting married or having kids and while I'm ok with that now, I'm afraid I will be wrought with regret when I reach my 30's and 40's.   In the first 10 months of living here, I went on no fewer than 20 first dates, I was fed up with New York dating, and I started to give up on finding a substantial relationship here.  and of course, true to form, that's when I met the bf.  We're taking it day by day, our future unpredictable, as we deal with our stubborn, argumentative personalities and the impending distance that will come when I leave NYC.  He, like many other NYC men, is not planning on getting married anytime soon. While our relationship has had its fair share of ups and downs, he really has been my breath of fresh air, a nice break from the frustration of weeding through the mundanity of dating.   

     

    As of right now, NYC is where I want to do my residency.  I can't help but wonder, however, had I stayed single for the whole 2 years I've been here, would I be so eager to return?  The hustle and bustle of the city, the thrill of new and interesting people to meet, the convenience of everything within arms reach - how long will this make me happy?  How long can it stave off that emptiness that the majority vote says can only be filled with family, children, love? 

Thursday, 16 February 2012

  • "Talent is overrated- What separates world class performers from the rest of us"

    This was the topic of the lecture given by Geoff Colvin, Senior Editor at Fortune, at Grand Rounds today.  It was a very interesting talk and so I will relay the message of his lecture to you:

     

    Many people believe that the key to being a "world class performer" is hard work and innate talent.  According to Colvin, however, the key to this success is deliberate practice

     

    Deliberate practice is different than just "practice" and "hard work" because it needs to entail the following 3 things:

    1.  Focused, critical attention to the task at hand.  This isn't just "going through the motions"; it's intense, concentration at improving your skill.

    2.  Pushing past your comfort zone.  

    3.  A guiding mentor to critique areas requiring improvement and to push you just out of your comfort zone.  

     

    Colvin referenced a study performed on the students of one of the School of Arts in Berlin.  They found that the difference between the great performers and the good performers was the amount of time spent on deliberate practice.  The magic number? 10,000 hours.  The great performers had all clocked in 10,000+ hours of deliberate practice. 

     

     

    What I found most interesting about this talk was the following:

    Many of us believe that truly extraordinary people are such because of their innate talent.  Because of such belief, when we encounter challenges along the way, we are more likely to give up, blaming our difficulties to not being "made for it" and envying others for being more "talented."  According to Colvin, however, it's not this amorphous "innate talent" that determines the difference between the excellent and the average - it's merely deliberate practice.  It thus follows that anyone is capable of greatness.  

     

    Personally, I, for the most part, agree with Colvin.  I do have to add, however, that I think those with "innate talent" may require sligggghtly less deliberate practice than their less talented counterpart.  

Tuesday, 14 February 2012

  • Boys with Small Penises

    Awhile back, I wrote a blog about a Predictor of Penis size other than Race/Stature.  In short, I attested that level of promiscuity had better positive predictive value of having a sizable penis than things like race, height, or build (there are a few exceptions to this trend that are detailed in the linked blog).  

     

    Being first and foremost a scientist, I feel a duty to report any new findings or observations.  Granted, in the past year, my rate of data accrual has been reaching nil; however, the year before that, I made substantial progress in my scientific endeavors, which I will now delineate.  

     

    After increasing my sample size and receiving answers to a quick poll, I've discovered what seems to be the predominant reason why even boys with small penises may have promiscuous tendencies:

     

    They just don't know if they're big or not!  I've found that a considerable number of guys just don't know!  These guys tend to be the "middle of the road" in terms of penis size - juuust a little too big to really be considered "small" and not quite enough to be considered "big".  The only penises they're really been exposed to is in porn, so they think to themselves, "Those guys are professionals, no way is that supposed to be normal!" When they ask females for their frank opinion, they'll often get answers like "you're big enough...for an Asian guy" or "nooo, you're fiiineee", which should only really be interpreted as backhanded compliments.  No girl is going to be like, "Sorry bro, I couldn't feel a thing."  

    Because these guys straddle a shade of grey, they'd rather embrace their ignorance, believe that they are for the most part sufficient, and continue on their promiscuous way.  After writing my past penis posts, I usually get a few dudes requesting me to post about what I consider to be "large."  I have never and will never post these measurements because I'm not that mean - unless you've personally done me wrong, I don't really want to go around bursting people's bubbles.  Also, "big" is different to every girl - I tell my black friends what I consider "big" and they laugh at my race's baby dicks.  

     

    Anyway ladies, these man sluts w/ the small sticks are out there!  If you ever find yourself in the vicinity of one, just do what I do: "Sorry hun, I'm tired, can we just go to sleep?"  :D

Wednesday, 25 January 2012

  • 2011

    I wasn't able to write any type of reflection on my 2011 during new years because I was losing old memories to shove a bunch of useless new facts in my head, so I guess I should do a quick recap now.

     

    2011 was a pretty tame year since I had to tone down my man-hunting activities - le sigh, my favorite hobby.  But this sacrifice did not come without its perks as I traded in my weekend stories for an incredibly supportive guy with an inflammatory sense of humor to match my own .  

     

    What I also realized in 2011 was that relationships don't make me happy, at least not in and of itself.  Having and pursuing goals, being productive, knowing that I am contributing to something more than just myself - that is my source of happiness.  If/when the boy and I go our separate ways, sure I'll be sad, but I know I'll be ok.  Conversely, if I was stripped of my ability to accomplish my own achievements, if I were to be just a "girlfriend" or just a "wife", I would be listless, bored, empty, depressed.  

     

    I think having been single for so long might have caused my self-identification to have formed this way or maybe this is a preference that was just written in my nature.  I wonder if as I get older this will change...like if I end up giving birth to parasites that people call children.  Maybe then I'd be happily willing to give up everything for someone else.

     

    Until then...2012!  (I guess if you're going by the lunar calendar, I'm not that off lol)

Saturday, 21 January 2012

  • Lying in Bed

    Why is lying in bed all day on a snowy day so relaxing, but lying in bed all day on a sunny day the most depressing thing in the world?

     

    It's still the same activity.

     

    1 more day until my boards (Step 1).  Wish me luck!

Monday, 26 December 2011

Wednesday, 14 December 2011

  • True Success by Kim K

    My guilty pleasure: the Kardashians.  I find them very entertaining and admittedly, watching them kind of makes me feel better about myself pwahaha...at least I am not that crazy.  Kim also has fantastic boobs...but sometimes I feel like she's just a few screws short...

     

    In the last episode of Kourtney and Kim take New York, Kim says:

     

    "I think true success is having kids and finding your prince charming and falling in love."

     

    Yes, Kim, that is true success... for those with no real skill set. 

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